All over again

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I feel like I have started all over again with a trach.  I'm right where it all started.  Way too much mucus, not able to blow my nose when I cry when I'm alone, short of breath just walking from one room to another that I have to rest, and worst of all as of right now not working.  I worked so dam hard to get to a point where I could work.  I haven't worked now for what going on 3 weeks?  I couldn't save money because face it, I am on disability and I'm very grateful, but that doesn't give me tons to save.  Bills are due, stuff getting taken out of an account that I'm not putting money into.  But all that I could honestly care less about.  What I honestly worry about is being a good mom.  I know I can't be the best mom when I can't do much because I get too worn out.  And it makes me so dang mad.  So yes, people can criticize how I'm not being a good mom because I'm not doing "enough" with my kids right now.  But, I honestly wish they knew how incredibly hard this is on me.  So, for all of you mom's at your witts end today, I see you.  For all you single mom's trying your dang hardest even when you feel like no one believes you can do it, I see you.  

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